Slightly Stressed in a Big Way

Okay so last week I ended up working 60+ hours and I am wiped. I skipped my LSAT class today and kinda got the shaft on this pseudo-date I was planning on. Woe is me.

So the wee little girlies out there who have been complaining about me not writing in the blog get to hear why I have not been doing so and may just wish that continues after my mini-ish vent.

Stressor #1: Work(s)- I am working two jobs and I'm pretty sure that I am at least 60 hours behind schedule to be done with AmeriCorps by Aug. 12. Not to mention, untill recently I really had nothing to do at the City of Salem but busy work and I was feeling that my time was being wasted there when I could be doing the zillion things that I have to do at FSELC (AmeriCorps).

Stressor #2, induced by Stressor #1: Food- I have seriously been on this crazy eating schedule. I was pretty damn well behaved last week (I even lost a pound!) and then I looked back and realized it was because I had evening events I had to attend and ended up just eating a measely granola bar for dinner...so for some reason I decided to binge on this delicious meal my friend Becki made (homemade rueben sandwhiches...beef marinated for eight days, and yes I'm eating meat again)...and beer, but that's in the category of its own. Oh yeah...and tonight, while reveling in the fact that I skipped my LSAT class, I downed a pint of Ben and Jerry's Banana Split...and it wasn't even that fantastic. Fuck.

Stressor #3, also induced mostly from Stressor #1, but also laziness is a factor: Working out-...or lack there of. I went jogging twice last week with my only friend in Salem (Becki) on Mon. and Tues. Since I had evening events all damn week except for Friday (and then I was so damned tired I just said "fuck it") I couldn't workout at night and I wasn't getting home until 10:30 at least so I'd be so tired from the night before I couldn't get up early.

Stressor #4:Social Life- This one is tricky... I want to continue my social life, or at least what is left of it. But with all of the above factors...it makes things difficult. Let me just say I can't wait for summer!!!! More on this one later.

Stressor #5: Men- Need I say more? Okay I will since I don't think y'all are up on the situation. Basically I still like Matt a little. But not enough to get back together with him. But definitely enough to not date anyone else seriously right now. And with all of the above factors, I have no fucking time for a boyfriend! There is this guy Jeff who I've hung out with a few times, who happens to be my friend Lisa's (college rugby teammate) older brother. I swore up and down that the next whatever wouldn't be an "older" guy simply because they *usually want to settle down. Hell I have no friggin clue where I'll be in four years (he's 27) but man that's a scary thought to think I'll be wanting to settle...NEVA!!! Muahahaha. Okay back to sane-land... anyway Jeff is really cool and smart and actually 'wants to make a difference in the world'. Wait, what?! Isn't that just for hippies and priests? OMG a real live man...perfectly normal (well so far, but quirky in a cute way) wanting to ::gasps:: do good for man kind?! Sheesh where does he think he's coming from? Anyway, I think that I would really like to stay single through the summer, it makes things less complicated. Even tho trying to stay single and 'cool' about things is a lot more complicated than it sounds.

Wow, that stressor really isn't a big one...but moreso than I thought since it's the longest written one...I guess I just like the spillin the juice, and work is boring.

Stressor #6: LSATs- Yes, yes grad school exams is what we all know and love...with a passion, no? Well my LSAT class is once a week for 14 loooong weeks in Portland on a Sunday night. You see the problem? Portland....14 weeks?? Anyway, work is really getting in the way of my study time...and working out time...and social time... and man time. Pretty much every time.

Stressor #7: Recreational Activities- aka smoking and drinking-- does the body good. not. that is one of my biggest de-motivators. It just seems so necessary to relax after a long hard week and it's part of my socializing...but then I go and do things the next day like skip my second friggin LSAT course (I can make it up online or in another class so it's not really that big of a deal) or stare at my room and know that I should clean it up but instead I'm sitting here writing a blog and catching up on the last three episodes of Brothers & Sisters. Their lives are much more dramaful than mine and everyone elses' and that's why it's such a popular show. My life doesn't blow that much. :-P

Anyway, I think that about sums up the shit factors in my life right now. I kind of have an idea to make a lot of it go away... I'm thinking (shh! don't tell anyone!) about quitting my job with the City and working just a normal schedule. That will allow me to study, workout, and eat right! Hoorah! As for themen thing, I think that's just an ongoing thing I'll just have to deal with...

So this blog has been really friggin long but you asked for it! This is why I haven't been writing in one...I was going to write in a journal but I killed two birds with one stone and now I can go to bed somewhat on time and get up early to workout, right?! Right.

Good night!